sweetness

After me taking a bath and J taking a shower......and watching tv J starts spanking me how he usually does and this makes me giggle a little so i hide my face..... he kisses my neck in a silly way and i like it...i have on cute blue sheer panties....he pulls me on top of him.....he pulls down the top part of my pink babydoll night gown exposing my breasts i look down at them and i kind of think they look cute and i like how he pinches my nipples......i love being on top of him....i bury my face in his neck while he spanks me ...he is really getting good at the finer nuances of spanking .....it was really stinging alot and i couldnt keep still for very long....i just had to reach back and protect myself a little even though i loved it all the same .....i just found it so erotic when he held my wrist ...he hadnt done that before...... then when i was stradiling him i kept pushing myself out of his reach and he said something like you better come back up here or it will just be even more harder.......i loved this.....just thinking about makes me all butterflys inside...it is strange how i can want him to do this to me ...i was actually thinking that while he was spanking me .......why do i like this?....but then i just was like well i dont want him to stop ...and then i guess everything was more blurry and all i could think about was how my butt was feeling....my panties were soaked....i was so turned on i just wanted him inside so badly but he just kept on spanking me til i was throughly spanked.....he does such a good job....i liked the way he would sweetly check in with me every so often to make sure i was okay and rub the nape of my neck.....hes soo sweet.....anyways im realizing how i dont rememeber everything in a linear way.......i just know that i went to sleep a happy girl with spanking thoughts in my dreams....sat no sex in the morning cause he was feeling bad...i really wanted to cause morning sex has a whole different feel to it.....i like waking up and having his penis nestled in between my ass cheeks... the way he used to rub it on me while we were both in a dreamy state and how he would wet it a little with spit and it would still be kind of soft when he would put it in me from behind but then in a few it would so hard and feel so good ...i like morning sex causue its more of a kind of lazy sex .....oooooh got off on a different train of thought now....sat night was very similar to friday night bath shower tv spanking....except my ass had just been spanked the night before....and he really totally teased me like crazy....he would use the whole anticipation thing...telling exactly where he was going to spank next and he chose all the most delicious spots......they were the exact spots i would have picked......i swoon.... oh and he said do you want to feel me come?.......so he placed my hand on him while he was moving inside of me......it felt so great when he came i loved it i felt like i knew my lover more.....

Then Again

Then again im prone to change my mind at a moments notice...... sigh

Too Much Sexiness

Am feeling reallyreallyreally sexy today...all day at work my thoughts drift toward whatever im fantasisisng about at the moment.....I really feel like a cat in heat .... i want to rub myself up against something.....hopefully soon my boyfriend....i would just really like to climb onto his lap when i see him (wearing a dress or a skirt of course) and kiss his neck a little and start rubbing my little self against him, teasing him....I miss him so much..its like my body needs him..... i love everything he does for me sooo much.......he is so masculine to my feminine.....he does the best things with me....and he feels the best......sigh......

Passion

i want to feel like im irresistable like he has to have me.....i want to be devoured and fed upon.....i want too many kisses all over my neck til i swoon with delight......i want my wrists kissed and fingers sucked.....i want him to run his hands all over my body and tell me sweet things.......i want him him to penetrate me with his fingers...and tease my clitty......i want his mouth on my pussy kissing her and licking her and sucking on her.....

Spanking, more spanking and still more spanking

Wow ...had a lovely weekend with J, lets see i had on these baby pink ruffled panties i felt like a complete little dessert in them.....they were kind of tight so they made me all the more hot and "bothered" .......J gave me a nice spanking on friday in them..... it was really yummy he is getting soooo good at that lately, in fact almost too good, it seemed as if i was in a constantly aroused state the whole weekend! i actually had to try and control myself ...it was like i had these little tinglies all over my little puss puss.....latley our newest fav. position is me on top....i used to not really be into that position but now with J its a different story....i somehow am able to really get my clit stimulated in just the right way, and im on the verge of orgasm the whole time...... when i finally do come, its very intense...i like being so close to him and i love it when he puts his hands on my waist and pushes me down further on him. On saturday more spanking! which i really was secretly hopeing for........this time it was much harder and stung alot and it was almost too much...i loved it ......everything was soo passionate and intense..... could feel myself drifting in other spaces..it got to be really intense and he really pushed my limits......i just buried my head in his shoulders and tried to not wiggle so much and he just spanked harder and harder. On sunday you guessed it more spanking!....by the time the weekend was over i felt thoughly released and wonderful......i think i really needed all that spanking, cause i felt better about everything, maybe its those endorphins and just having J hold me and love me and care for me...im very lucky, i hope i gave him as much pleasure as he gave me... i love it that i can be myself ......i wonder whats the proper way to thank a guy for spanking you?.....i think it must be giving him head...at least i think thats what my J would say.....

My Pretty Panty Obsession

hummmmm lets see when this all started...ive always loved girlie things but fairly recently me and my boyfriend have discovered the wonderful world of panties....i love all kinds; girlie, retro frilly, slutty,innocent cotton ....i really like the fact that i can change my personality a little depending on which panties i have on or off or partly off and on........this invites a little role play in to the equation which im a natural at since im kind of multiplicious anyway..... my most recent panty purchase are these darling little cute frilly pink skirted thongs with a cute little bow on my ass and a little key hole opening....they are fabulous sex pot panties.....

Too much of a good thing can be wonderful.

why i like to be spanked

well i don't know exactly when i discovered this wonderful little aspect to my sexual persona, probably around the time i discovered the internet. I had always liked being with strong aggressive men....didnt know why i liked bad boys until recently, i think i have it figured out.. i liked ( past tense) bad boys because i like to be a sexual submissive at times. i thought these guys would be able to meet my sexual needs. it drives me crazy when my boyfriend holds my wrists down over my head or behind my back if we are doing it from behind......although im not so submissive that i ever want to be sex slave...well maybe for a night or 2 heheheee....but i do love to be spanked....my favorite position to be spanked in is over his knee it has this whole childhood element to it that i love... also i love his lap so much...i guess like most other spankos i know, the whole panty pulling down is intensely erotic for me i feel so vunerable when he does it or when he tells me to pull them down and yes i love when they are pulled part way down i feel so vunerable and exposed i love it.......my boyfriend is an expert at hitting just the right spots which for me are my sit spots and occasionally on the back of my thighs which stings so nicely.....the spankings i like are sexual ones i get wet easily from spanking and i love it when he runs his hands between my thighs and remarks how wet ive become...makes me feel like an extra naughty girl.....i love it when he tells me how naughty i am too....i also love it when he says im a good girl too.... i guess i'll have to psychoanalyse later.....my tummy has flutters just thinking about it.....i like it when he calls me little one too and kitten. i guess i enjoy a little ageplay with my sex as well...i cant help it, my man has a paternal nature to him and i have never been with anyone like that before including my own estranged father so naturally he brings out my inner little girl.....i really have no idea what he really thinks about spanking me... he has always been as ass man so i know that some aspects of it are apealling to him, but he does not want to really hurt me, which is so sweet cause a lot of men would not care. the other night he was spanking me and he said how his hand was hurting and he said he knew that i must be feeling it too...so im wondering if we should use something else to spank me with ...although in a weird way not all aspects of spanking turn me on. i really only like hand spankings although i would like to try a ruler or a wooden spoon. i still am sort of shy about my little spanking fetish, but thanks to all those women that have written about their experiences i dont feel so alone....i do wish he would spank me a little harder i think he will get to know my limits and needs......i want him to push my limits and spank me just a little bit more than i want just enough to make me squirm a little and also the whole hes in charge kind of thing.... yeah i love it that im helpless.... and the whole subspace thing.....i wonder if he knows how much spanking is a stress reliever for me.....and also if he knows how wonderful it feels to feel my butt being sore afterward even the next day its like a reminder of him......so far i have not been spanked that hard yet, but maybe soon.....its defiantly interesting to think of ones self as a feminist and then to admit that you love it when your boyfriend spanks you like a little girl......and that you like him to be the boss and that you want to feel helpless and vunerable and submissive and not have any control......there are many other aspects about my sexuality that i will write about in this blog and its not all about spanking but for right now it is cause its kind of a new thing for me and him......bought some really cool new ultra girlie panties, i cant wait to wear them for him and to get spanked in them.

a little bit on me

well ive spent the whole evening last night reading sex blogs, i couldnt help myself. im just truley fascinated with what goes on in other peoples sex lives...and im endlessly fascinated with my own sexual proclivities as well. ive always been a very sexual person as early as i can remember. i masturbated to orgasm when i was about 7 or so. i remember being really ashamed about it and actually praying to God for help or forgiveness, but it felt so good to have an orgasm. i was able to have at least 5 or 7 at a time....i think i got caught a couple of times as well which added to the embarrassment. im begining to see how embarrassment became kind erotic for me....that combined with a catholic school education, and the very culture i belong to. these factors shaped my sexual leanings. ive always been very much a girlie girl much to my own dismay at times......and i definatly lean toward being a submissive sexually. experimentation is in my nature and im also so curious with what it would be like to be a man, and what my own pussy feels like when my lover penetrates me.

my weekend with J

J came in late on thursday.... after we both got in bed for the night he pulled me on top of him......and we kissed alot....i suggested that we put some of that warming stuff on us... i just love the way it makes everything all hot i wish they had it in extra hot......anyway i think it really enhanced everything....he felt soo good inside it was like all the right places were being hit uuuummmmmm oh my god ... i felt like i could just cum over and over again...and i did....i guess we had sex for like an hour or soooo..... i love how talented my man is .......im a lucky girl......hes my stud muffin........Well the next night we played around a little and he spanked me for a while...i liked it , it was really stingy and he said it hurt his hand so he wondered about my ass , but i was enjoying my naughty little self........i wish he'd do it harder...heheheee....i seriously wonder how he really feels about me being such a spanko kitty....i wonder if he likes spanking me...i think he does like it a little atleast because he knows i like it....he is afraid of hurting me and that is sooo sweet of him.......but of course i love it when my butt is all hot and red......it makes me forget reality for a while and makes my pussy sooo wet......i wish we could role play a little more with it, i like him to tell me im a naughty girl......and i like it when i have to squirm too.....i love being a kinky girl........its delicious.......

Ordinary life does not interest me. I seek only the high moments. I am in accord with the surrealists, searching for the marvelous.
~Anais Nin

dichotomy

Im not a bad girl, Im a good girl being bad for you....

because......

"... because two bodies, naked and entwined, leap over time, they are invulnerable, nothing can touch them, they return to the source, there is no you, no I, a single soul, oh total being....."
Octavio Paz

what i want to do

I just want to climb on top of him and impale myself on him over and over and over again...........god it feels so good when he is inside of me. Its like all the places i have are completely filled upby him perfectly. i just cannot describe how wonderful it feels. Really i could just do that forever, he is such a fun ride.....

All the Sexy Thoughts

Goodness gracious where do i begin..? I finally have a chance to spill all the sexy secrets i've been keeping. Im the quiet girl no one would suspect of having such strong passions. Todays erotic fantasy is called boyfriend comes home. I thought of this while taking my bath this evening...... the day begins like any other in my normal day to day existence escept i look slightly more fabulous..... he knocks at my door and i answer it and then he uncharacteristically throws down all of his things and places his hands on both sides of my face and brings my lips to his and passionatly kisses me as if it were the last kiss on earth...im taken by surprise and i feel weak in my knees. He hasnt seen me in a while so it feels like he is taking me all in greedily and i love it. He holds me tightly, he is so strong, he picks me up and carries me off to my bedroom and lays me on the bed and immediatly starts ravishing me with out holding back........he places kisses all over my neck and i slowly start to slip into another realm......he runs his big strong hands all over me and i look up into his eyes and suddenly my heart starts to quicken......i feel breathless.....He asks me if ive been good and for a moment i ponder the question, then i shyly shake my head no...i think i much rather prefer being a bad girl than a good one.....then i feel his hands running up the back of my thighs and pausing to rub my ass which he likes soo much......then he says I'll have to pull down my panties now.... and for some reason that phrase and similiar ones drive me crazy with anticipation....and i pull them down just enough and he bends me over his knee and spanks me suprisingly hard......which not surprisingly drives me crazy i love it....i love to feel so vunerable and i love how he overpowers me and i love feeling so femminine in the mist of his masculinity.......he knows exactly what i like.....he spanks me almost too hard but not too much then sweetly pauses with little breaks and rubs my ass which feels really hot and stingy now.......he teases me a little and i never know what he'll do next.......i love it when he runs his hands between my legs and notices how wet my pussy is....then he keeps spanking me til all the all the little hard feelings are out of me.........i want to cry....i feel so relaxed and all glowing cause of the wonderful spanko endorphins........then what comes next is really fabulous, he pulls me up off his lap and kisses me more til i feel loopy and light headed which i like....we kiss alot, i love it when he kisses me.... so much can be expressed this way....He lustily pushes up my shirt i love it when he takes off my clothes.....he kisses my breasts and pinches my nipples which is delighful.....my pussy is aching for him to be inside me now....and he knows this but decides to make me wait for it.....instead he reaches down and spreads my legs soo wide i feel so exposed and open to him and really receptive..........he traces his fingers all around my pussy ticking it a little and teasing me.... teasing me ......i just want something inside of me like his fingers and tongue. I know he wants to make me cum and i feel on the verge the whole time.....just a little more and i will melt all over the place ..... ....to be continued......